oh don't you put me on the back burner

so i was watching one of those typical action-y movies where your typical hero figure does something stupid that's shown as heroic and one of his loved ones that did nothing but know slash love slash share blood with the hero figure gets captured as some form of incentive to draw the hero to the bad side. and when the hero figure gets wind of this and gets his phone call from said loved one, the loved one goes and says something typically idiotic along the lines of "don't come and save me. i'm not worth it. you're more useful or important or heroic. go save the world and let me die."

i would like to take a moment to formally state to any one that i know slash love slash share blood with that, in the case that i am captured by the bad side because of you, you better come save me. screw the world, i am more important. i don't care if you die in the process (unless it is before i am rescued in which case you are a really bad hero and you should probably get out of that line of work right now before anything happens that you can't undo, like me being captured by torturers), because you got us into this mess in the first place. and i don't mean save me in the process of saving the world. no. saving me should be your only objective. there should be no multitasking in a mission as important as my rescue. if you get me kidnapped, you drop everything and get me unkidnapped immediately.

unless of course the dryer is running, then you take the time to stop it before you come get me. i would like to return home to an actual home and not a pile of ashes.

(i'm also going to mention here that i have a tendency of falling for the bad guys, and there is a chance that real-life bad guys are just as awesome as fictional ones. so, if you come rescue me and i give you the secret signal for you-took-too-long-and-now-i-have-fallen-in-love-with-the-villain, you should abort the mission and just go away. maybe leave us some cheeseburgers and chocolate milkshakes. oh, and make sure you don't forget to turn back on the dryer when you get home because wet clothes get musty and gross.)

*All These Things That I've Done - The Killers

no hope, no love, no glory

you always like the bad guys... because they always lose.

that's what my cousin's daughter told me last night as we were watching a turkish drama. i had been on the "bad guy's" side since last year, when the show came out. in my opinion, the "heroine" was way more of a bad guy than he was. anyways, she said this comment very offhandedly and half-jokingly. but it got me thinking about how true it is. i usually do find myself cheering for the bad guys. the ones that are completely hopeless. that have a troubled past and no future. the ones that, even when they win, always lose. the ones that suffer from an eternally unrequited love. the ones that people can shoot with a smile on their faces. the ones that die with no one to grieve their deaths. the ones that dont give up. that dont pity themselves. that can walk with their heads held high to their immnent doom. the ones that survive the unsurvivable. they are just so much cooler.

psycho-babble time. i think they hold such an appeal to me for two reasons, reason number one, their complete independence and refusal to give up. they keep going long after it's clear they'll have to surrender. i've never been a fan of self-pity, and that is something that they (at least the ones i like) have very little of, and even if they do pity themselves they don't just sit around and mope. they don't give in to it. they are so much less helpless than the good guys. reason number two, basically the second part of her comment. they always lose. they have no future, and for someone who has an aversion to plans, who hates to think about the future, who can't commit, and who can't make a decision to save her life, the thought of having no future for some reason seems very attractive.

*Happy Ending - Mika