no hope, no love, no glory

you always like the bad guys... because they always lose.

that's what my cousin's daughter told me last night as we were watching a turkish drama. i had been on the "bad guy's" side since last year, when the show came out. in my opinion, the "heroine" was way more of a bad guy than he was. anyways, she said this comment very offhandedly and half-jokingly. but it got me thinking about how true it is. i usually do find myself cheering for the bad guys. the ones that are completely hopeless. that have a troubled past and no future. the ones that, even when they win, always lose. the ones that suffer from an eternally unrequited love. the ones that people can shoot with a smile on their faces. the ones that die with no one to grieve their deaths. the ones that dont give up. that dont pity themselves. that can walk with their heads held high to their immnent doom. the ones that survive the unsurvivable. they are just so much cooler.

psycho-babble time. i think they hold such an appeal to me for two reasons, reason number one, their complete independence and refusal to give up. they keep going long after it's clear they'll have to surrender. i've never been a fan of self-pity, and that is something that they (at least the ones i like) have very little of, and even if they do pity themselves they don't just sit around and mope. they don't give in to it. they are so much less helpless than the good guys. reason number two, basically the second part of her comment. they always lose. they have no future, and for someone who has an aversion to plans, who hates to think about the future, who can't commit, and who can't make a decision to save her life, the thought of having no future for some reason seems very attractive.

*Happy Ending - Mika