Saturday, August 4, 2012

i aint got nothing to say

it's crazy how fast i can go from clean apartment to tornado just blew here and left a neck-braking mess in its wake. sometimes i wish i was the kind of person that liked to clean. the kind that would pick up the mess on the floor instead of just picking a complicated path through it on the way to the kitchen for another cup of fruit punch. but mostly i'm just happy that i'm the kind of person that has a fairly high tolerance for mess. it makes it so much easier to be lazy.

i don't think my mind has realized that i am back home. i sit on the couch everyday compiling lists of things that i need to do, and only realizing that i could and should just do them right now when it's too late. i'm living in a moment of suspension. where i can spend a morning making chocolate covered cake balls and reading poetry and then laugh carelessly when someone brings up school and professors and exams. i'm starting three hundred different stories, poems, ideas and stopping them mid-sentence, mid-thought, mid-care. i'm opening novels just to stare at the letters on the page, letting my mind wander somewhere up on the ceiling - in the corner that holds sunlight even after darkness has claimed the rest of the room.

i know i should buckle down and finish something more than a chocolate bar, but i think i'll continue to float here, making friends with dust motes, until life and the real world decide to bring me down.

*Dancing in the Dark - Bruce Springsteen

3 comments:

  1. anonymous hippopotamusAugust 4, 2012 at 2:38 PM

    hehe i like this....and no i don't know if i'll like it just as much later in book-form. but as of now...i like it. the beginning was normal blog and then i dunno it got kind of floaty. can writing be floaty? :D well it was.. it felt floaty..god floaty..hmm maybe its just my mood.

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  2. lol stupid. and yeah it did get kind of floaty because my mind is completely incapable of keeping its feet on the ground. and writing can be anything and everything which is why it is awesome. duh.

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  3. anonymous hippopotamusAugust 6, 2012 at 9:14 AM

    * good floaty not god floaty

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