Monday, January 2, 2012

it goes unnoticed

because vacations always throw my inner schedule off way more than what is traditionally acceptable, i realized pretty late yesterday that we were starting a new year. oh well. needless to say, i started twenty-twelve without much sparkly excitement and wishes for happiness. in fact, new year's eve saw me asleep at ten or eleven after watching the santa clause on tv and driving for a gazillion hours across the country, and new year's day found me stuck on the couch all day trapped in a marathon of the lying game, recuperating from all the business of the past week. (what is it about a marathon that makes it so hard to turn off? this must be scientifically studied.)

had i known it was new year's i probably wouldn't have done anything different, though. for one, this year is double even numbers which is like a slap in the face to me because i like odd. also, i don't know how your family vacations are, but after one of mine you need a day of nothing before you are back to normal. third, i was never one of the big new year celebrators anyway. i remember the first year i was allowed to stay up and watch the ball drop. i was so excited i couldn't speak, and it was the most anticlimactic moment of my life. i think i lost the new year's spirit then. and finally, i'm not a big hoper of a whole year of happiness. why should the whole year have to be happy? i find comfort in sadness, productivity in anger, and creativity in hopelessness. happiness is great for photo shoots and barbecues, but a year of happiness would be a total waste of time for me. and this year, i hope to do something worthwhile. (unless i get accepted to the phd program. then i'll just waste another year "educating" myself.)

the point is, this year started off slowly. today was supposed to be my productive day. there are bags and stuff just lying around from the florida trip that need to be unpacked and organized. there are dishes that need to be washed and clothes that need to be laundered. i have pictures i need to upload and songs i need to download.  but i can't stop yawning, and every second i wait the chores seem to multiply and i just don't feel like doing any of that today.

*Again I Go Unnoticed - Dashboard Confessional

3 comments:

  1. anonymous hippopotamusJanuary 4, 2012 at 2:38 PM

    ugh lying game was a HUGE disappointment. I was prepared for it to be not as good because of what you said....but :( it was like really bad. sooo sad!

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  2. at least i know that it wasn't just me.

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  3. anonymous hippopotamusJanuary 4, 2012 at 7:29 PM

    you should watch pretty little liars too...its awesome and the new episode for this week was awesome too

    oh and switched at birth...altho switched at birth isnt really a suspenseful

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