i'm so excited, and i just cant hide it

oh my god.

i come home today after lunch and shopping with my brothers and sister's family. everything was calm until we parked. then, brother number one was screaming because he was cold and i had opened the car door. brother number two was screaming that he couldnt find one of his peanuts (dont ask). nephew was sleeping. i was struggling to carry a zillion things and get the door open so that everyone could get out of the cold asap. brother number two closed the car door in brother number one's face. brother-in-law yells at both brothers. brother number one gets upset about the car door and being yelled at. this was all happening in the span of about two and a half minutes, along with some other stuff.

anyways, as im opening the door, i notice a package. i refuse to get excited because my mom orders stuff from online all the time, and just because i was waiting for a package doesnt mean it's for me. everything calms down a bit, and i look at the box. it has my name on it. i open it, and come face to face with this:

which i then turn over to see this:

and finally open up to see:

is it not beautiful? does it not fill you with joy? does the sight of my name written across the front page (and the spine) of a real book not send chills down your spine at the thought of the possibilities of the future? okay, so maybe it's just me...

there are some changes i need to make (like adjusting margins and stuff and the blurb on the back needs to be changed) before i make copies for people i know, but those can wait. for now, i'm going to continue to stare at my book and eeeeeeeeeeeee.

(for those of you who knew me/knew of me in high school, the picture of writing on the cover is from The Story. i found it on my computer. i dont remember why i took it, but yeah...)

*I'm So Excited - Pointer Sisters