lately the weather has been so bipolar and consequently so have i

this whole raining one day and being sunny the next is beginning to wreak havoc on my life. okay to a less dramatic degree, but still, it is screwing around with my moods - not the only thing doing that, but whatever. and so one day ill feel like being all social and love people (to an extent) and want to go hang out with what few friends i have managed to keep this long and the next day i'll be a complete sociophobe with less technological skills than the unabomber. because, really, who needs people?? my family is more than enough for me.

and then i start to think about how in a couple of weeks i'll be half way around the world where i will be forced to be social every day for three months. and while i know that once i get there i'm sure i'll have loads of fun, the prospect of that forced socialness does not seem too appealing at the moment. plus i have so much cleaning to do before i go which is never something to look forward to. and i needa lose some weight so that i can gain it back once over there. ugh.

anyways, on a less morose note, it's summer yay. i'm not sure if i mentioned that in an earlier post, probly did. and there are so many things to waste my days doing that i dont even know where to start. and there are so many books stacking up on my bed that i have to read this summer - some borrowed, some just forcefully recommended - but i havent really gotten into any of them and i rarely ever have time to read over in saudi arabia. there's also this project thing i'm working on and while the end product is going to be awesome the getting there is a headache. i have to work with this program that freezes for a full minute every three keystrokes. its psycho.

ok so i apparently suck with the happy tonight. so while i go off to do something cathartic, i'll leave you all with words of wisdom taken from a bookmark my brother abdullah made for me: read, it's what big people do.


*High of 75 - Relient K