they said, "i bet they'll never make it."

remember that stress thing i mentioned before?? okay well i have decided that i absolutely hate it and cant believe some of you people have been experiencing this your whole lives. two weeks and i think it might kill me. it is messing with my sleep now. grr.

so last night after not being able to sleep without dreaming that i missed my stupid senior design class and my group presented absolutely nothing because i had everything with me and so we failed both the class and lucinda, i suddenly remembered something my art teacher once said to me senior year.

it wasnt just to me, it was more to a group of us. we were sitting in art doing something artistic, or reading the story, or a combination of both. and then (i'm sure we were talking to her about school or something, or she was listening to what we were saying to each other) she says, "you guys might feel smart and do well in school, but i'm sure all of you are going to fail out of college... if you dont change how you are. procrastinating and cramming might be enough to pull As in ISA, but there is no way it will work at real universities." we of course argued with her, and the whole thing ended up with her giving us her email so that when we failed after one semester we could email her and she could say 'i told you so.'

yup, she gave the best pep talks.

anyways, one of the people she told this too has already graduated... a year early. so it obviously wasnt prophetic for her. another one moved across the world and i dont really know much (read:anything) about what she's doing, but im sure she's fine, making mrs. art wrong again. the third is going to graduate this year and be an awesome doctor and she's also working which makes the lady, once again, incorrect.

and then there's me. who's basically sailed through college like everything else without worrying or stressing or pulling a single all nighter or anything, because that was not how i did stuff. and up until now, it seemed to work. now, in my final semester, i have mrs. art's voice ringing through my head, and i have a really big feeling that i'm going to be the one she'll be right about. and i dont like the feeling. not at all. i should probably start looking for her email address. *sigh*

*You're Still the One - Shania Twain