but then other people come along and say that it's good. say that you're crazy for wanting to change anything.
i never believe these people. not at all. friends and family i feel are obligated to say nice things, even if they swear they aren't. i dont believe acquaintances either because they have so much more reason to lie. they dont know me well enough to say the truth, they're just trying to not offend me, i think.
the only person i would trust is someone completely unrelated to me. i dont know them, or someone who knows them, or someone who knows someone who knows them. you get the picture. completely distant.
actually, no, i dont think i'd trust them either. i have no idea what kind of taste they might have. they might think twilight is well-written (and though entertaining it most certainly is not what i want my stuff compared to).
so then, if i cant trust my own judgement, and i cant trust anyone else's judgement, how can i judge my stuff??
as you may be able to tell, i'm bored and procrastinating. i tried working on my nanowrimo novel and have realized that it is unsavable crap. and i havent even gotten to the "good parts" yet which will surely kill me with their inability to be good. i refuse to give up on it though and will finish it to its craptastic ending after which i will probably delete it.
*sigh* didnt they say these realizations would come in the second week? i guess i'm ahead in something at least.
*Through with You - Maroon 5
Happy craptastic twohundredandseventyfifth post! I personally enjoy everything you write. I think it's a fair testament to what we think of your writing that we are all still reading and checking for new posts. I do realize that this probably isn't your best work and is just word vomit, but doesn't that make it that much more awesome that we're addicted to it?
ReplyDeletewhy thank you (to both things)! your comment made my day.
ReplyDeleteur so dumb.... u shud trust ur family cuz we're the only ones who will tell u the truth for example ur alarm clock looks like something you'd find in a kindergarten classroom. another example would be the fact that i called you dumb for posting this post :P :P :P
ReplyDeleteand tooly.. sorry inadvance if it seems like im always picking on you...but doesn't "happy craptastic twohundredandseventyfifth post!" mean that you think this post is craptastic and/or crappy??
* in advance... my space seems to have broken for that part of my comment.. :D
ReplyDeleteumm maybe thats because i got my alarm clock when i was still in single digit ages. and i like it so i dont care.
ReplyDeleteand i think my favorite thing about tooly's comment was that she said happy craptastic (number) post. it fit with what the post was about, if that makes any sense out of my head.
Twilight is the most well-written book on the face of this planet. Hemingway would be jealous.
ReplyDeleteAnd how the hell have you written 11,000 words already?!?!
i think hemingway would be jealous of twilight. i'm guessing that series sold more than his books did... or at least had a more psychotic fandom.
ReplyDeleteand, well see, i have this nifty thing called a keyboard attached to my computer and all i do is hit these little squares and words come up, easy as pie. and it's 11,000+ words, thank you very much :p it's mostly crap, though, so it shouldnt really count. i think there are like two lines that i actually like out of all those words (which add up to a little less than 20 single spaced pages... sounded more in words, right?)
Sorry to be the ass that says this, but why do you let your family follow you, to me blogging is an escape why would you bother writing it if your not escaping? It's like writing a diary then letting someone read it. What's the point?
ReplyDeleteit's actually only one of my sisters that follows me, not my whole family, and i don't really write much that i wouldnt say to her face. blogging, for me, started out as a way to procrastinate and try and force myself to let people read some of the stuff i write. sure, it's an escape, but i've reached a point where i dont care what people think about me, because all i'll ever be is me. if i write something in my blog that people i know think is lame (if you read it, you'll find lots), well, that's their problem. the only things i censor are stuff i dont want anyone to know yet, not just my family. so it's more of an escape from the daily routine than from the... not fake, but more censored life people know me to have.
ReplyDeleteYes, please keep talking about your novel in words from now on, it makes you sound much more awesome. But single-spacing is no joke...
ReplyDeleteHappy craptastic post doesn't mean that I think it's craptastic. I'm poking fun at the fact that she thinks it's craptastic when it's in fact not. There's this thing called sarcasm that's infused in my language.
ReplyDeleteim sorry tooly.. please dont get offended, i didnt realize your language was infused with sarcasm. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm not offended :)
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