you exist behind your keyboard, then you're gone in a flash

i have been told, on various occasions, that i am better when not in person. okay, so maybe not in those exact words, but just about. for example, i have been told that i am a "better friend online," i'm "funnier in email," and i'm apparently "easier to keep in touch with when [she] doesn't have to worry about seeing me."

when i was first told this, i thought it was funny. the second time, still funny, but a little weird that more than one person felt that way. i think it's around four or five different people now that have told me something along those lines. if that many people agree without even talking to each other about it, then i figure, it must be true.

it takes a great deal of effort for me to actually get together with people, and not just because i'm a huge loner. my parents (read:dad) are pretty strict (yes, i realize that i'm over twenty. no, that doesn't make any difference in my house. thanks for rubbing it in.) so we've (my sisters and i) developed a system of going out and seeing people during hours of the day that are supposedly dedicated to our education. within those time frames, i then have to find a time that works for both people (me and whoever is worth my time to meet). this is harder than it seems. so when someone tells me that they "prefer to email me instead of hanging out" it kind of works. yes, it can be interpreted a bit insultingly but none of them have meant it insultingly so i don't take it as such.

in fact, i have chosen to take it as a compliment to my excellent emailing skills (yes, i'm reaching. no, i don't care). don't you hate it when you get an email from someone that is long but says nothing? at least nothing you can understand because it is filled with typos and grammar mistakes and sentences that break off out of nowhere and wouldnt make sense even if they were completed? apparently, mine arent like those. they may be long and rambling at times (or always... whatever), but apparently people like them. they like them so much, in fact, that they would willingly go without seeing me just to get them.

see how i can spin anything the way i want it??

anyways, you'd think after reading this that i'd be this great online contact person, right? well, no. i hardly ever go on any messengers, rarely communicate through facebook, and never ever go on any of the other social networking sites. i really only do email.

*The Dutch Courage - The Spill Canvas